Reassurance

Another usual long day at work and you come back home exhausted. 

No energy to cook, so it is yesterday's leftovers for meal tonight.

Turn on laptop and scroll through your news feeds to check what is happening all around the globe.

Look at happy, shiny couples. Wonder when you will be part of one. Friends and colleagues on fancy holidays in exotic locations, makes you think how do people roam around and you have so much to bang your head into.

A couple of wedding photographs and happily-ever-after later, you don't feel like going any further. It's the same, irritating story every day. 

You shut down Facebook. Check your phone, hoping for some messages. No new notifications. No hellos, no good nights.

Even that person who kept pestering you with messages, doesn't seem to be doing it anymore. Feeling weird and lonely, you put yourself to sleep. Because no one else will, right?

Why does one message matter that much anyway? When did a virtual message become that important? Isn't it stupid to look forward to them? No. The truth is that a message has become much more than just a form of communication. It is a reminder that someone, somewhere is thinking about you. A reassurance. 

A reminder that no matter how exhausting the day was, it's going to be a good night. And it's okay to want that.

So this is for the one who cry themselves to sleep thinking that no one cares, for the night crawlers who yearn to talk to someone special who tells them how much they mean to them, and for the hopeless romantics. It's okay to be needy. It is perfectly normal to expect.

You should know that even though it has been a rough day (or days and more), tomorrow will be a new day. The dawn will bring with it the sound of chirping  birds and endless laughter, the fragrance of the early morning air and that special someone, the amazing feeling of the dew drop and a hand on yours. Know that it is just the day which is over, not your life.

You might have to wait a little longer for that person who sends you the last message you read before going to sleep, but you will not have to wait for the message today.

Good night, you beautiful,

You have been strong and I am proud of you.

daddy

Going though some old pictures I came across a picture with daddy.
All decked up in a white bandhgala at a family celebration, holding me close while I slept (I must have been 1 then) he looked sharp.

Not all super heroes wear capes, daddies are the real super humans.
If ever I get a life again I wish we get back these roles, because there is something I cant define about you and cannot get enough of you !

I am tough because you are strong. 
Nothing affects me more then your reaction to anything.
I absolutely love the way you get restless when I am not well, the way you call me 'laddoo', the way we poke mom, the way you call me 4 times every day, the way you are into your children and so much more.
Although I do not like when you force me to eat apples.

You are my constant in the ever changing life, for now and forever and more.
If ever it happens that nobody loves me in this world, I know for the fact that you will still love me with all your heart.

I have been giving some real time lately, but you know how things are :P, but its alright.
We will sort it soon.
I must tell you that I trust you and no-one listens to me the way you do.

The way you have the best handwriting, the way you have pushed me to think beyond just ordinary.

But daddy I think you should smile a little more, although I like the tough look too. 
But still we can try ... whatsay :*

we are the better team at home, mom sometimes tries to out do, but we know how it is. 
I love you and more and more and much much more :) 

To all the daddies out there, yours is the most thankless job but you are doing it really well.
To all the children out there, please take sometime off from your social/economic responsibilities to make parents feel your presence.

Make it count

The more things change, the more they remain the same.

You might love him with all your heart, but expression can make a lot of difference.

You need to ensure that this expression reaches the right person and correct place when there is still time.

Tell him

That he is magical, even if it is just his presence,

That he smells amazing, even if it is just his aftershave,

That he is fun, even if it is just his silence,

That he is game, even if it is just his eyes,

That he cooks well, even if it is just noodles

That he is fantastic, even if it is just his chaos,

That he is caring, even if it is just his stupid conversation,

That you love his mess, even if it is just his hair,

That he is crazy, even if it is for his plans,

That he is high, even if it is his football craze,

That he is madness, even if it is his mood,

That he has a vibe, even if it is for his colors (in all forms),

That he is heart, even when you have your own,

That he is love, because you never felt so convinced.

So, tell him now because tomorrow may just be a dream.

"at the end all that matters is love".

I would have if I could have

Never did I realize that this might be something I might have to rethink about ...

Today I would have had you but I dont and the reason is because I did not consent when the time was just right .

I might have to settle for someone who might just love me more that you but I might not be able to reciprocate, because I cannot get over and trust me it is really tough.

I don't have an option now ... I don't have you and you won't be convinced.

No one knows about this and the absolute pain remains inside me.

How I wish I could travel back in time to make just a few corrections and get all this mess in a good shape.

We all Sit and talk about destiny, but when it really dawns it is painful and heartbreaking sometimes

I have been very mean and have been finding someone who can help me move on and get over you... But no luck.

How I wish things would be a lot different, trust me 'I would have if I could have' the power to rephrase and set the situations right.

We might be at distance and there is a lot of communication gap but I am still not able to decide if we are over or there is still some hope for me in there.

the moral of the story remains, say it when it matters the most and nothings change there-after.